Monday, June 17, 2013

THOUGHTS ON MY DADDY'S DEATH AND MY NEAR DEATH


Lord, you have been our dwelling place in all generations.  2 Before the mountains were brought forth, or ever you had formed the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.  3 You return man to dust and say, "Return, O children of man!"  4 For a thousand years in your sight are but as yesterday when it is past, or as, a watch in the night.  5 You sweep them away as with a flood; they are like a dream, like grass that is renewed in the morning:  6 in the morning it flourishes and is renewed; in the evening it fades and withers.  7 For we are brought to an end by your anger; by your wrath we are dismayed.  8 You have set our iniquities before you, our secret sins in the light of your presence.  9 For all our days pass away under your wrath; we bring our years to an end like a sigh.  10 The years of our life are seventy, or even by reason of strength eighty; yet their span is but toil and trouble; they are soon gone, and we fly away.  11 Who considers the power of your anger, and your wrath according to the fear of you?  12 So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom." Psalm 90:1-12
 
The past ten days I was involved in a motorscooter accident, that should have either killed me or left in a coma, and my dear father, Colonel Don Robison, suddenly died three days later. I have been deeply reflective on the fact that last Monday was my father's last day on earth. Ten days ago could have been my last day on earth, but here I am writing this blog, a little beat up and bruised, but alive.
 
I am thankful that my father lived a long life of almost 84 years. It was his time to go. Spurgeon has given me great comfort in what he wrote about the loss of a loved one:
 
Suppose you are a gardener employed by another. It is not your garden, but you are called upon to tend it. You come one morning into the garden, and you find that the best rose has been taken away. You are angry. You go to your fellow servants and charge them with having taken the rose. They declare that they had nothing to do with it, and one says, "I saw the master walking here this morning; I think he took it." Is the gardener angry then? No, at once he says, "I am happy that my rose should have been so fair as to attract the attention of the master. It is his own. He has taken it, let him do what seems good." It is even so with your friends. They wither not by chance. The grave is not filled by accident. Men die according to God's will. Your child is gone, but the Master took it. Your husband is gone, your wife is buried—the Master took them. Thank him that he let you have the pleasure of caring for them and tending them while they were here. And thank him that as he gave, he himself has taken away."
  My own mortality and the loss of my father has made me realize the closeness of death like never before. Death snatches us all. In Hebrews 9:27 we are told, “And as it is appointed for men to die once, but after this the judgment.” In Ecclesiastes 7:2 Solomon wrote, For death is the destiny of every man.”
 
How do you feel about your death? Are you prepared for your own inevitable last day of your life?  Jonathan Edwards.lived his life by 70 resolutions to help focus his thinking. Several were in regards to thinking about his own death:
#7 Resolved, never to do anything which I would be afraid to do, if it were the last hour of my life.
#9 Resolved, To think much, on all occasions, of my own dying, and of the common circumstances which attend death.
#17 Resolved, that I will live so, as I shall wish I had done when I come to die.
#19 Resolved, Never to do anything which I would be afraid to do, if I expected it would not be above an hour before I should hear the last trump.
An entry in his diary reads: Monday, Feb 24, 1724. Let everything have the value now which it will have on a sick bed; and frequently, in my pursuits, of whatever kind, let this question come into my mind, How shall I value this on my deathbed? “   Jonathan Edwards lived with an awareness of his death. I’m asking myself I do this. I wonder if you live aware of your death as well? Does this affect your daily actions?
I have had a reality check, that has caused me to do some real thinking about my life. Listen to the insight God gave to Moses. Standing on THE SHORES OF THE Jordan River. Moses looks over the Promised Land and cries “Lord teach us to number our days!”  “Let me be aware of  the limitations of my life. Let me have a outlook on my death and my life. Let me remember.
 
"Happy is he that always has the hour of death before his eyes, and daily prepares himself to die." Thomas A. Kempis
Teach us to number our days”  Moses paints a picture of life being like a book. Each day is a new page. Each night another page is turned. We don’t know when the final page will be turned. Moses says, “You return man to dust and say, "Return, O children of man!... You sweep them away as with a flood; they are like a dream, like grass that is renewed in the morning:in the morning it flourishes and is renewed; in the evening it fades and withers… The years of our life are seventy, or even by reason of strength eighty; yet their span is but toil and trouble; they are soon gone, and we fly away." (Verses3,5-6,10) Moses concludes: “Teach us to number our day’s.” Little children don’t number their days; they don’t think about the reality that they will die. Most teenagers don’t either; rather they are indestructible and immortal.  When someone close to us dies we are shocked, especially if they are our age or younger. Every day someone dies. We sneak a peak at the obituaries, we hear the news, we see it on T.V.. Yet we still deny it will happen to us. Though we deny it, it means nothing to it, since death doesn’t have to ask for our permission. Death is coming and everyday is someone’s last.  In spite of the prevalence of death, we prefer not to talk about it. Most of us recognize that we will eventually die, but this recognition is reserved for a distant event decades from now, not today, not this week, not this month, not this year.  Death is a foreigner, not a close neighbor.
William Law wrote that the living world's brilliance blinds us from eternity and the reality of death.  "The health of our bodies, the passions of our minds, the noise and hurry and pleasures and business of the world, lead us on with eyes that see not and ears that hear not."'
It is this unexpectedness of death that should encourage us to take a second look, to reconsider our pleasant denial, to admit that, yes, death might visit us as early as this week. Jesus tells a story that illustrates this. Luke 12:15-21, “Then he said to them, "Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions." And he told them this parable: "The ground of a certain rich man produced a good crop. He thought to himself, 'What shall I do? I have no place to store my crops.' "Then he said, 'This is what I'll do. I will tear down my barns and build bigger ones, and there I will store all my grain and my goods. And I'll say to myself, "You have plenty of good things laid up for many years. Take life easy; eat, drink and be merry." '"But God said to him, 'You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?' "This is how it will be with anyone who stores up things for himself but is not rich toward God."
General William Nelson, a Union general in the Civil War, was consumed with the hostilities in Kentucky when a brawl ended up in his being shot in the chest.  He had faced many battles, but the fatal blow came while he was relaxing with his men.  As such, he was caught fully unprepared.  As men ran up the stairs to help, the general had just one request: "Send for a clergyman; I wish to be baptized." He never made time as an adolescent or a young man and he was too busy as a general, with too many pressing concerns.  In half a second, the general's priorities had been turned upside down.  The war raged on, but suddenly his interest had been captivated by another world.  Who cared about Robert E. Lee now?  And it was too late to bother with a doctor.  Get me a clergyman!  With only minutes left before he died, the one thing he cared about was preparing for eternity.  He wanted to be baptized.
Thirty minutes later he was dead. How was this general served by the remembrance of death?  Hardly at all, because he remembered it too late. To help us avoid such a gross oversight, Thomas A Kempis urged, "Thou oughtest so to order thyself in all thy thoughts and actions, as if today thou were about to die. What ways shall I wish that I had taken when I am leaving this world?"'
When we find out we have only thirty minutes left to live, as General Nelson did, we can't do much more than prepare our own souls.  Even worse, the moment of death could prove that our whole life has been a lie.  The thought of  death came too late for the fool and the general.  Will it come too late for us? When confronted with the reality of death, it is amazing how we begin to see what is really important in life.  That is why young people give little thought to the significance of their lives, while the elderly think about it all the time.  In the face of the end of life, questions about its significance loom large.  There comes a time when we stop denying our death and start numbering our days.  Do you?
Moses goes on and writes, “that we may get a heart of wisdom.”  What is a heart of wisdom? Let’s look at the opposite. It is one who does not number his days aright. The fool who lives in denial of death! “The heart of wisdom is the one who lives his or her life in view of the reality of their death.”  I want to challenge us to look death in the face, to seize its reality, and make it the very tool that inspires us to live.
 
Deuteronomy 32:29, “If they were wise, they would understand this; they would discern their latter end!”  Psalm 39:4,  O LORD, make me know my end and what is the measure of my days; let me know how fleeting I am!”  Ecclesiastes 9:10, “ Whatever your hand finds to do, do  with all your might, for in the grave, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom.”  Ephesians 5:15-17, “See then that you walk circumspectly, not as fools but as wise, redeeming the time, because the days are evil.  Therefore do not be unwise, but understand what the will of the Lord is.” What happens when we reflect on our death?
1. Reflecting on our death refocuses our perspective 
 
Remembering my death is acting like a filter, helping me to hold onto what is essential and to let go of what is trivial. Why let trivial things capture our hearts?  When we forget death we lose perspective. Eternity turns everything around.  On judgement day I suspect, the things that bother us now, that force us out of our agenda's and schedules-taking the time to help someone, reading our bibles-will be the very things we deem most important.  We may not remember the t.v. show we skipped, the surf session we missed to do God's will, but in eternity we'll be so g!ad we did.
 
A group of 50 elderly people over 95 years old were asked one question: “If you could live your live over again, what would you do differently?” The three most dominant answers were: I would reflect more, I would risk more, I would do more things that would live on after I am dead. When confronted with the reality of death, it is amazing how we begin to see what is really important in life. 
2. Reflecting on our death filters our passions and priorities
 
What person in his right mind would continue contemplating an affair if he knew he wasn't going to wake up the next morning?  What person would risk eternity in a drunken stupor? What fool would ignore his loved ones and his God for one last night so he could make an extra thousand bucks just before he died? "Death is the best rule which we can make for all of our actions and undertakings.” Fenelon When we schedule our priorities and follow our passions without regard to eternity we are essentially looking out of the wrong end of the telescope.  Instead of seeing things clearly, our vision gets distorted.  We miss the big picture.  It will cause us to continue rebelling against God thinking later on we'll set things right, then death comes and surprises us, because we soon forgot we were presuming.
 
Remember Jonathan Edwards 17th resolution? "Resolved that will live so, as wish I'd done when come to die." Paul exhorts Timothy in 2 Timothy 4:5-8, “But you, keep your head in all situations, endure hardship, do the work of an evangelist, and discharge all the duties of your ministry.  For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time has come for my departure.  I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have kept the faith.  Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day- and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.” 
 
Jesus teaches us in the parable of the talents that each person's perspective affected how they lived.  "His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things.  Come and share your master’s happiness!” (Matthew  25:21-30) John Maxwell says, "In order to hear well done from the Lord, we have to well do for the Lord.  John Mason says, “Do today what you would postpone until tomorrow.”  The only thing that comes to a procrastinator is death. Do it now! Start living for God, start serving Him and His people. Find out His will and do it.
How to keep death alive-“Remember”
 
When my dad died last week it reminded me in a way that nothing ever had that one day my body, my bones will be lying in a casket.  My work on earth will be done.  What will matter than?  What should matter now? What should matter in the light of my future death?  I would encourage you all to remember,
1. Remember in reflecting on those who have lived and died before you
Hebrews 12:1-4, Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,  looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted.   In your struggle against sin you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood.”
 
We are here for such a limited time, and it may be shorter than I think.  What did their life mean?  What does my life mean? Paul said,
Philippians  1:20-21, "It is my eager expectation and hope that I will not at all be ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain."
Acts 20:24,  "But I do not count my life of any value nor as precious to myself, if only I may finish my course and the ministry that I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God."
2 Timothy 4:7, "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith."
2. Remember Jesus death. 
 
John 19:30, “ When he had received the drink, Jesus said, "It is finished." With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.”
 What is your "it"?  What must you accomplish so that, like Jesus, at the Hour of your death you can look up to heaven and say.  "I've been faithful."?  Thomas Kempis said,  “Before night; and when evening comes, dare not to promise thyself the next morning.  Be thou therefore always in a readiness, and so lead thy life that death may never take thee unprepared …”  
3. Remember we glorify the Lord by our death 
 
"Truly, truly, I say to you, when you were younger, you used to gird yourself and walk wherever you wished; but when you grow old, you will stretch out your hands and someone else will gird you, and bring you where you do not wish to go." Now this He said, signifying by what kind of death he would glorify God. And when He had spoken this, He said to him, "Follow Me!" (John 21:18-19)  Jesus told Peter about the fact that he would die in his service. It was indirect, but Peter probably got the message. And who knows what look was on Jesus' face when he said it. But such is the price of following Jesus Christ. This isn't so different from what he predicts for each of us. "If anyone comes to Me, and does not hate . . . his own life, he cannot be My disciple" (Luke 14:26). "He who loves his life loses it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it to life eternal" (John 12:25). "If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me" (Matthew 16:24). "They will put some of you to death, and you will be hated by all because of My name" (Luke 21:16-17). 
 
 John said Peter's death was to glorify God, "This He said, signifying by what kind of death he would glorify God." The way John said this seems to show that he considers all our deaths as appointed for the glory of God. The difference is: with what kind of death will we glorify God?  Are you ready for this? Will you show God great in the way you die? Will you say like Paul, "To live is Christ and to die is gain"? Will you call this ugly, defeated, torturing enemy sweet names? Will the loss of all your earthly family, friends, and possessions fade at the prospect of seeing and being with Christ?
Are you ready for the end of time? Psalm 90:12, “So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom.   Ecclesiastes 7:2 "Death is the destiny of every man; the living should take this to heart" 
It’s been said, “When you were born,' he said, you alone were crying and everybody else was happy.  Live your life in such a way that when you die you alone going to be happy, leaving everybody else crying. ?  Jonathan Edwards resolved, “Resolved to live with all my might while I live!”Are you ready for the day of time?
 

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